god this babysitting thing is killing me

the dad is home today, but i still had to come over at 6:15 to: make sure the kids are up, feed them breakfast, make sure they brush their teeth correctly, they get dressed, put on their snow shit, take their pills
one of them has aspergers and the other is bipolar
so watching both of them is basically a fucking nightmare

and the dad is just sitting on his ass, eating toast and jelly
the mom pays me like $4 an hour, and she told me this morning, she has to pay me next wednesday 

i had class at 9am and i had to walk the kids over in slush and water at 8:30, so my feet are frigin soaked
when i got home, i only had 15 minutes to do all of my shit: brush my teeth, eat breakfast, get dressed, feed lupin, pack my shit

fuck it

so i’m not even going to class because it’s too late anyways
and it’s not even worth doing this because really? what am i going to do with $4 an hour? nothing.
and next week, i’m supposed to walk the kids to school so they can get on the bus at 8:30 and i have to wait for the bus to come
so i’m going to be totally late for my 9am classes

which is weird because ya know what? she was the one who decided to take custody and yet, i am the only one who is suffering from this shit
give or take they’re losing money, but they were the ones who took them in

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this is so stupid.